Friendship...

When i first know a person...
I won't think much bout friendship...
When i know a person longer...
I would love to know even more about that person...
When i really know that person very well...
I will start thinking of maintaining our friendship...
How long this person will be my friend...??
I will think of treating him and her with all that i can...
because i want to keep our friendship until the end of my life...=)
u see...that's why i don't really call my class mates as friend...
I call them my class mates...=T
Well...Friends...
what is friend??
Think properly...what is friend to you??
For me...It is a relation between two or more people
who cares for one and another...and it is rare and hard
to find one who is SincEre...but i found 7 of them...^-^
I want to keep my friendship long...Who don't,rite??
not all friendship can last long...
Because not you and i can control what will happen to our friendship...
Things just don't go the way we want it to...
I can't keep our friendship till the end...
That's what I regret Forever and Ever... until the end of my life....
because there's no turning back between you and me...

Curiosity

If I am a boy...
all those things won't happened on me huh...
If I am a boy...no one would even care bout my existance hor...
Why am I a girl?
because God make me a girl...
because parents genetics carry both XX
Curiosity leads me to this blog...
I'm thinking very hard...
Why would I have this blog at the first place?
I don't really remember anymore...haha
...i used to have great curiosity
but was always stopped
by friends asking me not to be too curious...=)
Thanks to them and him....
Thinking back of the past...
I was really an extremely curious person...
Luckily...I'm not that curious anymore...
I glad for who i am today....=)
Though today I may not be funny...loveable...
or soft-spoken.....
at least I'm frank...i guess...
I'm not a person who is good in using
words to express what i'm thinking and
don't really know how to twist word like other people...
Don't really know how to be a good speaker...
but I always said the truth and
I will try my best to be there for people when they need me...
Sometimes...people hate me for being frank...
I don't know if it's a sin...
but after ALL the time...
Only true friends accept me for the way i am... being frank...hehe
I love you guys...Hugs...Thank you and hugs again..=)

Choir

Since Form 1...I've always admired seniours who'd joined choir...
I love singing...and music is a part of my life...
I can't get it out of me just the same like
I can't get something out of my past...
It seems like choir is not quite important for some people...
They don't care whether they did their best or not...
What they want..just the marks...
but for me...choir is something that is special to me...
We build our teamwork...We build our "keserasian"
to harmonised with one and another...
I'm tired of girls who are trying to make my life miserable...
Since i'm not actually needed somewhere...
Why would I still want to waste my time there
looking at faces that will give me those kind of stare like one kind??
No more weird glance...no more weird stares...
Isn't it great?
I don't need to waste my time to continue something that i like
when it is already contaminated...
My name and reputation already gone...
There's no need to stay at a place where I am not welcome..
If I didn't quit things will be even worst for me
but better for.........people can take advantage on me to get friend's attention...
I won't be so stupid anymore...It's unnescessary...
If I still stay there...War will start...and of course people with <<<<>>>>> wins...
Quitting will avoid me from 10times of even more miserable life...=)
Believe me...
I glad I QUIT...At least dunid to kena tikam...until i die...

Still the same old me...

Sometimes really feel like giving up in life...
Meaningless life...
Just living for the sake of living...
Still alive just because my heart is still beating...
Still alive just because i am still breathing...
Still alive just because I am
not brave enough to kill myself and end my life...
I'm such a pathethic person...

Somehow...something in me just never change huh...
This prooved that I am still who I am...
Didn't changed much...=)
Old friends..I am still the same old me...=)
Rite??
Miss you guys so so much...
You guys...must take good care of ursaf...
Hehe...shocked u guys isn't it?=D
I'm learning to be accept realities and truth...
Didn't run away from the truth like last time...
Can handle things on my own...=)
Love you guys...
Hugs...

Boredom....

I thought Form 6 will be a new chapter in life...
Everything seems to be so nice in the beginning...
but who knows...even me,myself..
I din predicted that this will happened...AGAIN!!
Just the same like last time...
Just hate it when it become like that...
I don't understand...Why me? Why it's always me?
I believe most of my friends will understand me...
Form 6...From the top...fall to the bottom...and
become like nothing hopefull...

Someone who seems nice to you...
doesn't mean you can trust her...
Because...she will betray u at anytime anywhere...
I'm just a human being...
Can't take it so many times in a lifetime...
Enough is enough...