Nocturnes...

A song named "Nocturnes"...
Lyrics written by Fang Wen Shan...

and the music is written and is sang by "Jay Chou"...

This song is about how he actually misses his dead girl friend...

Well...based from what I understand on the lyrics and mtv...=)

For me...singing this song

reminds me of a person who was very close to me...

yet already changed...

Can said that it's the same like

that person already leave me

to a place that is very far away from me...

I can never talk or hear him anymore...

I will never, in my life see him smile again

like how he used to smile to me...

The image of him smiling to me

will still appear in my mind

when i didn't realised that i was actually thinking of him...=T

....and i already burried him in me...my heart...

He will stay in me as one part of me forever...

Hmm...well I think that it's a good thing to have idol...hehe...

We should encourage young people to have idol...

so that they will have hope...just like me...hehe

Listening to 'his' songs is just the same like

listening to what i want to say...

All 'his' songs...

Brings me back to life...

I was once a 'dead' human...

erm...u can also said that i was once a 'living zombie'...hehe

I think that 'he' should be called as the second music genius...haha...

'He' has created so many differnet kind of songs...

'His' songs and musics are supreme...

i'm really deeply in love with them....hehe

If u want to know what I mean...just click here for

nocturnes:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vn9GT-3-I1M&feature=related

jay chou playing piano with yu hao:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhXNMcl9Et0

and you will understand why i like 'him' so so much....^-^

"Episode One"

Haha...
I still remember on the other day...
a friend of mine asked me to write a story about my love life...
I was thinking very hard to think of what i want to write...
but nothing nice appears on my mind...
Those that were on my mind was mostly
of sadness, loneliness and crying moments...

As time passed...
I keep trying to remember those nice and happy moments
that i used to spent when i'm not alone...

Finally...I realised that those were the past...
It's normal that i couldn't remember everything that already passed...
No matter wad.. I will still complete this story of my life...
as I've promised you...hehe
Erm....I can't finish telling this story at once...
but I will create episodes from it...=)

So here it is "Episode One"....


EPISODE ONE

Think back of it...like it just happened yesterday...^-^
Still remember when i received letter from teacher to inform
that SABS will be my secondary school a few days before primary school ended...
I was so proud of myself when i received that letter and knowing that
there's only a few of us from Methodist Girl Primary School
who made it into that school makes me feel sad...
One of happiness and one of sadness...
I tried my best to take and keep as many pictures
as i can with my closest friends...
On the last day of primary school...
I remember hugging a few of my class mates before leaving school with tears and
hope that we will meet again...

Preparation for secondary school...^-^
This is the best part...
SHOPPING...
...but....my family financial condition is not good...
We need to spend every penny we have very carefully....
but everything that is needed were bought...=)
Appreciate what we have...^-^
Appreciate every single little thing that our parents try to give us and gave us...
Appreciate when we still have the chance... or else it would be too late when you realised this when they're gone...
That's all for now...the end of Episode One...

Episode Two...will be coming very soon....^-^

What will I become Without You??

A few of my friends asked me this...
"Have you ever regret that you ever _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ?"
My answer is "No, I never regret."=)
Why I never regret??
Because of those experience....
Those moments when i needed somebody but no one is there for me...
Those are of those that make me become stronger...
At least i'm not as "tofu" as Form 1...hehe


I really appreciate every single thing that is given to me and all those precious moments that i can keep until the end of my life make me realised that we need to grab the chance when we have the chance or else the chance will disappear...


Besides, i oso realised that true friends are hard to get and
only a few person in your life will be your true friend until
the end of your life...

Conclusion...
Realised that difficulties and problems can make us become stronger...
Realised that chance are yours to get them when they are around and
not to find them when they're gone...
Realised that those people who is always try to be around with you
when you are lonely, sad and happy is true friends that you will never get elsewhere...


_sTuPiD_

EARTH HOUR

EARTH HOUR

I will switch off my lights...Will u switch off your lights??

^-^

I'm willing to do anything...

To make Earth a better place...

and this is so easy...

I just need to switch off the lights only..haha

Not His..Not Mine Anymore....

Are you looking at the same moon as I do??

I don't really know why suddenly so emo...
but i really felt something when i received
e-mails or msgs that have anything to do with couple...

Today I received an e-mail from a friend

titled "How u know when a person fancies u"...

I'm kind of down when i read that e-mail...

because those were the things that I used to do....

Those were the things that he used to do...but not anymore...

We've become like strangers...but what i can tell is that

he is a stranger that i'm know well....

It's not that i know everything about him...

it's just that I couldn't forget how close we used to be...

Those nights when we used to hang on the phone....

Those arguments when it used to happened

because of me....I admit, i was childish...haha...

but he will always said that it was his faults...

Those laughters when we used to have when

i don't even know why we laughed...haha

Those nights when we don't even talk about anything important...

but yet we can talk for several hours...

Those nights when u used to play the songs....

and we together listened to it...

because we have nothing better to say....

Those nights...when we end up saying "Good Night, Sweet Dream"^-^

Those nights when u don't call me anymore......
Those were the nights where i used to calm myself down...

Persuade myself...convincing myself...that u are not the same...

That u already have someone else....

That U r no longer mine...and I'm no longer yours...

I know...and have already accepted the fact that

he and I have really came to an end last year...

but...I'm always caught with problems...

that i thought i can still share with him...

Last time...when i was down...

he will do anything just to make me smile again...

but he is not like that anymore...

I know...I know...I really know...

and Already accepted this fact that he's not mine anymore...

I'm not his anymore...yet I always wonder...I guess these nights...

he's doing the same thing...say the same thing...but not to me...=)

Really hope that he remembers when i said that

"i will bless,cherish and pray for U and he,hope

that both of you will have happy ending"...I really mean it...

I guess after STPM everything will be better for me...

as I will never gonna see him anymore...

Everything will end in our secondary and higher secondary and high school...

yet I will still treasure those precious moments of my life....

that he gave me....it makes me grow...stronger....and wiser...

I realised that when a person really likes you....

Anything you do, will touch his heart...

If a person don't like you...

No matter what you do...

It will never touch his heart...

Thanks to all my friend...

I really appreciate those times when they were there for me

when i think of him...

when i miss him...

when i need him beside me...=)

Just like jigsaw puzzle...hehe...

There's a large empty hole...that's him...=T

yet...I have friends...filled in the jigsaw puzzle...

These friends are the friends who

have fill in his place in my heart...=)

Well, it may not be as perfect as before

because there are still some small spaces left empty...

yet i really wanna let my friends to know that

i'm really glad that u guys are there for me....

Who wants to win??

Who wants to win??

I guess most of us wants to win...

Who wants to lose,rite??

I don't want to be a loser...neither you too...

but what's the point of competition??

Creating human who is willing to sacrifise anything to win??

To win...can you sacrifise your energy...??

To win...can you sacrifise your efforts...??

To win...can you sacrifise your time...??

To win...can you even sacrifise your friends??

Some people can...but not me...

I know that once I do things that we regret...

If there's a chance...I will try my best to work things out...

but when things really become very terrible...

there's no turning back...

and i'll regret for the rest of my life....

What's the point of winning??

After sacrifising all I can...

What I get??Compliments??So....

Who cares if you get compliments...

People don't care...

People jealous...

People want to take it away from you...

What's the consequences??

I'll live a miserable life...cause no one will win forever...

people will fall no matter how high you fly...

that includes you and me...

What we get if we lose from the beginning??

Well...We relax...hehe

We observe what other people do to win...(with rude yet scary yet mean tactics)

We realise that we are being used by others to get what they want...

On the same time...=)

We grow up...becoming wise...wiser...and even more wise...hehe...