Not His..Not Mine Anymore....

Are you looking at the same moon as I do??

I don't really know why suddenly so emo...
but i really felt something when i received
e-mails or msgs that have anything to do with couple...

Today I received an e-mail from a friend

titled "How u know when a person fancies u"...

I'm kind of down when i read that e-mail...

because those were the things that I used to do....

Those were the things that he used to do...but not anymore...

We've become like strangers...but what i can tell is that

he is a stranger that i'm know well....

It's not that i know everything about him...

it's just that I couldn't forget how close we used to be...

Those nights when we used to hang on the phone....

Those arguments when it used to happened

because of me....I admit, i was childish...haha...

but he will always said that it was his faults...

Those laughters when we used to have when

i don't even know why we laughed...haha

Those nights when we don't even talk about anything important...

but yet we can talk for several hours...

Those nights when u used to play the songs....

and we together listened to it...

because we have nothing better to say....

Those nights...when we end up saying "Good Night, Sweet Dream"^-^

Those nights when u don't call me anymore......
Those were the nights where i used to calm myself down...

Persuade myself...convincing myself...that u are not the same...

That u already have someone else....

That U r no longer mine...and I'm no longer yours...

I know...and have already accepted the fact that

he and I have really came to an end last year...

but...I'm always caught with problems...

that i thought i can still share with him...

Last time...when i was down...

he will do anything just to make me smile again...

but he is not like that anymore...

I know...I know...I really know...

and Already accepted this fact that he's not mine anymore...

I'm not his anymore...yet I always wonder...I guess these nights...

he's doing the same thing...say the same thing...but not to me...=)

Really hope that he remembers when i said that

"i will bless,cherish and pray for U and he,hope

that both of you will have happy ending"...I really mean it...

I guess after STPM everything will be better for me...

as I will never gonna see him anymore...

Everything will end in our secondary and higher secondary and high school...

yet I will still treasure those precious moments of my life....

that he gave me....it makes me grow...stronger....and wiser...

I realised that when a person really likes you....

Anything you do, will touch his heart...

If a person don't like you...

No matter what you do...

It will never touch his heart...

Thanks to all my friend...

I really appreciate those times when they were there for me

when i think of him...

when i miss him...

when i need him beside me...=)

Just like jigsaw puzzle...hehe...

There's a large empty hole...that's him...=T

yet...I have friends...filled in the jigsaw puzzle...

These friends are the friends who

have fill in his place in my heart...=)

Well, it may not be as perfect as before

because there are still some small spaces left empty...

yet i really wanna let my friends to know that

i'm really glad that u guys are there for me....