Sunrise??Sunset??

Sunrise??

Sunset??

Sunrise??

Sunset??

Sunset or sunrise??
Depends on u to judge...
Why is it a sunset??
Why is it a sunrise??
Well...
all depends on how u want to think...
For me...
Sunset or sunrise makes no difference...
The most important thing is...
I am still alive...
and
I am moving on....
Without him...
I can still survive...

Sunset or sunrise??
It's not important to me anymore...
The most important thing is...
I am still alive...
and
I am moving on...



-sTuPiD-

I can??Can I??

Be MySeLf...and Try My BesT...^-^

After struggling from the bottom to the top...

since Lower Six until now...

Finally...first time...

I get B for Accounts Paper 1...

That was nice...

but it was bcoz the questions were easy...

I'm not saying that i'm clever...

What i'm saying here is that...

I mean...the questions given in our monthly test

is not as hard as the real STPM standard...

There's nothing tricky in the question...

while the real STPM...

consists of many tricky informations...

Finally...in April Test...

First time in my history...

PNGK

I get 3.33...

Lower Six first test was 2.83...then is 1.67...

Then February was 2.5 sumting...

and April Test 3.33...

How to maintain??

Easy to say...but hard to do...

Who doesn't know to get good results we must sacrifise??

Who doesn't know to get a good boy/girl friend

must have good characteristics and noble qualities...

Who doesn't know education is for a better tomorrow??

Who doesn't know your mom is a woman??

Well...give up??

I don't want to give up yet...

but i'm tired...

but I have no time to rest anymore....

Counting down to STPM...

there's only 192 days left...

How to rest??

How to keep up??

How to maintain and become even better??

Be myself...and try my best??

haha...ya rite...

Have faith...

That's the only thing i can do...

-sTuPiD cUpId-

FinaLLy ^-^

I have companions...^-^
My sister needs to pay attention on her course...
She doesn't have enough time
to take care of her two little hamsters...
i will be helping her
to take care of them for the mean while...
will return them to her....after her course finish...
means i will still lose my companions after a few months...

Hoping by that time when i return them to her...
I will found a new companion....^-^
hehe



-sTuPiD-

^-^ Love it....Love him...

Toto and Maru ^-^

Eating 'mom mom'

Sleeping ZzzZzz

Cleaning 'xi shua shua'

Playing ^-^

Aww...They are SooooOOOooo Cute..^^

This two hamsters belongs to my eldest sister, Carmen...

I really like her hamsters...

Well...they r cute, lovely...

And best of all...

They are harmless...

Back in Standard 3....1999

I had a hamster...

named Fei Zai..hehe

It's very cute..has greyish white hair

and kinda plump...

Very lazy...

Dislikes exercise...

but loves to sleep...

and I love it the way it is...^^

When i have no one to talk with...

I will talk to it...

I will play with it...

I'll let it run around my room...

Looking at it...calms me down...

& Makes me happy ^-^

Really very sad when i lose it...

My only companion...

The only one who will listen to me when I'm sad...

Well...pity him...

He was forced to listened to whatever I said

because he can't say 'no'...hehe

Miss it so much....

Want to buy myself a new companion...

but if it die...

I can't take that anymore...

First Try...^-^

Finding for the one that i like...
The complexion...
The size...and the most important one...
The feel of course....

First Touch....
It was very hard...and kind of heavy...
Placing finges in the correct place...
The correct position of doing it...
Wow...It was so fun...

Belum cuba...
Belum tahu...
Cuba sekali...
Mahu lagi... ^-^

It's BowLinG...haha
I went with Goh and Khoo...
That was my Very First Time playing BowLing...
Kinda bad...but nvrm...
I will try to do better in future...


Jadi mestilah cuba baru tahu...^-^
Hehe...


-sTuPiD-
^-^

3D-The darkest deep down...

How helpless i was....
standing there can't do anything...

Everybody must have the thought of
"padan muka" on that time...
Ya right...Indeed...
Just want to do something for friend....
Want them to spend their special day
LIKE a special day
INSTEAD of passing the special day
just like a NORMAL day...
I guess all people know
the feelings of celebrating special day ALONE...
I felt it much...Don't want anybody to be like me....

Still remember in form 4 and form 5...
I was a disaster...
Still remember i'm always
the target when it comes to discipline...

Knowing that Form 6 is a chance
for me to have a new beginning...
I've changed myself...

Become a lil different from what i was...

Not the best...
but at least better than the "ponteng school" girl rite??
Now...I am the "ponteng class"girl...
Next time...I maybe won't have any nick name anymore...
but time are not given...
I must be like this, this, this and that now...

Now....at this moment
Now....at this hour
Now...at this second
I'm just a human being...
To let go of someone...
it took me few years...
Now...to really change myself...
Do u think i can do it in a second??

Afraid that I will lose myself again like last time...

Trying my best to keep myself the way i am now...
Tired...and wanted to give up...
but still holding on bcoz i really want to have a better life...
Really don't want to be who i was...
It was the worst nightmare ...
Does anybody understand??
Not only people around me...
Even me,myself...
Wanted to change too...desperately...

Ker...I miss you...
At least u can lend me ur shoulders when i wanted to cry...
Can't wait for u to come back...
I can't stand back-stabbed and being embarrase anymore....

-sTuPiD-
feeling even worse day by day....
hope that time can pass even faster...
want to get out of there asap....
don't want to go there anymore...T.T

Where is The Promised of Happiness??

Shuo Hao De Xing Fu Ne???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1iRWjx6LFM

From this song...

It reminds me of something...

Something that was very important to me...

No 1 in my life....
My priority...
My everything...

Where'd you go??

I always ask myself....

Where'd you been??

I always wonder....

Where is our Love??

Where is it?

Where has it gone to??

Where r u??
Where you've gone??

Now I know...

You are gone....

to Heaven...

Once, someone left you and

went to a place that is very very far away...

beyond a place where you and me can reach....

that U couldn't hear me calling u anymore....

the place named Heaven...

So I guess...

There it is...My Love...in the Heaven...

Thanks To God...

I finally found New Loves....

that is not the special one...but

it's friends....and very close ones....

They're there when i'm lost...

Finding for u...

They're there supporting me...

When i'm lonely...

When i needed u...the most
They're there....

The Past....It's was A Part of Me...

It was a part of me where u were there for me...

but it will not be A Part of Me anymore...
it will not be A Part of My Future...

Those promises that we've made....

I will keep them in me forever....

and it is burried in me forever....

still it is deep down...i didn't forget them...

it's in a place deep down in me...

I call it the grave....

So that's it....

The end of our Promises....

Deep Down In Heart

Good Bye

-sTuPiD CuPiD-