Have You EveR?

Yes..I have...
Have what?
Have you ever experience the feeling of going to die soon...
Yes...I experienced the feeling of going to die soon...

I used to have a big lump at the part below my shoulder...
I thought that I might have breast cancer...
It was pain...and I was really worry...
I keep it to myself...not telling anyone about it...
including the person closest to me, my mother and boyfriend...
I cried by myself...

Then I think to myself...this cannot be...
I'm still young and I haven't repay my parents
for they have take care of me since young...
I also want to take care of them...
I will feel very sad everytime when thinking that my time is coming to an end...

Then I decide too tell my mom...
and expected that she will say I think too much...
And so...I told her...and same as what I've expected...
but this time she touch the lump too...
It's hard...and she's worry too...
Then things go the other way...
Instead of hoping her to comfort me...
I comforted her, telling
"maybe I really think too much...it is no big"

As usual..I go out dating with my boyfriend...
Our relationship just started few months ago...
but our relationship settle down quite fast
because we're committed to each other...
Everytime I met him...
I just give him a smile...
And when I'm in his arm...
I really have no idea of what to do...
I was really sad when I know that I might leave first...
He is so lovely and caring....
I really almost wanted to cry when I spend my time with him...

When reach home...I made a wish that the lump will soon go away...
And not long after I made that wish...the lump is gone...
I know I might have that lump again...but I was relieved...
And in my heart...there's 3 words that
I want to tell my family and my dearest boyfriend...
I love you all...and I know people will grow old...sick...and die...
No one will live forever....and
All I hope is I can spend as much time as I can with you all...
Please do take good care of yourself if one day I'm reli not around...

And to all my dearest friend...Thanks guys...
You guys really helped me alot...
From the top of my life I fell to the bottom of my life...
and you guys get my feet back on the ground
standing stronger than before...Thanks dear all...
I really appreciate our friendships...
Please do take care of yourself too...

What's new ??

Lately...i was busy with trials...
din online for few weeks dy.....

Selvan took off to Canada already....
Wonder how is he doing there....
Can he get use with the altitude there??
It's kind of getting cold at his place...
Hope he wun catch a cold there...
coz nobody can take care of him there....
He's on his own....=(

I really hope that he will always stay strong like he always does...
I know it's not easy to be out there alone....
but i really hope when he feels lonely...
he will think of me and Kerryn....
Think of all the times we had together ^^
and laugh....hehe

Hope....he will stay healthy....
and don't forget about me....

Really hope he can come back Malaysia soon....

-sTuPiD CuPiD-

I'm VeRy FiNe....^ ^

I may look exhausted....
I may seem sad....
I may be weak at times.....
but for sure....
I am very fine....^^

I am happy nowadays....really very happy....
Really feel much better than i ever felt....^^

What i want to do....
is to achieve my aims....^^
with no worries....^^

I can do it....
U too can do it ^^
We can do it ^^

Together....we try our best.....achieve our aims.... ^^

-sTuPiD CuPiD-

''The Summary''

I guess a lot of people is wondering....
and has been asking how....
this two human being don't have any connection...
no similarities...no chance to even talk....
barely even meet each other...
one is a quiet person...
while the other one is one of the busiest girl in school??
how come the both of them can get together??
and just when it happened??
.....and HOW ??
how this and how that...?? hehehe ^^

Well...
haha ^^

What i really want to say is...

THANK YOU ^^
to my Dear...and also
to his friends...especially hamyu ^^
who always helped me
when i needed a helping hand the most^^
i won't forget u guys after having a bf...^^
and the most important of all....
thanks to my Dearest Dear again...hehe ^^

this nice and silly guy...
he accepted all her flaws...
and also promised to spoil her...
and even treat her like a princess....
isn't he sweet?? ^^
i'm so lucky that i've found this guy...^^

Hmm...to some of u who is curious...
I came up with a summary... haha ^^

and here it is

'the summary'...^^

She was a girl who don't believe in relationships...
She was a girl who erm...dislikes guys....^^
because she thinks that guys are
playboys...and irresponsible...
and the worse of all....she thinks that
guys who already have gf
will still flirt around with other girls...

Well...this girl...she don't really think that
any guy will worth her time...
her effort...
and her feelings anymore...
but one day....
after 8 months studying Form 6 in SABS...
she suddenly noticed the existence of this special person...
a nice person...who has exactly, the same phobia...=T
who is very quiet...who is not a playboy...^^
and then....slowly....
she started to know this guy more and more... ^^


And here she is...together with that Mr. Nice Guy ^^
With 6 things on the "List To Do" ....^^
Hehe...what 6 things to do?? ^^
It's secret between the both of US.... ^^

Accept you the way you are...
Love you the way you are...^^

A New Journey waiting for me...

Another day had passed...

Another day begin...

The past is still the past...

The future is unpredictable....

Nothing is for sure...but

what for sure is...

A new journey is waiting for me ahead...

How many days i'll have to go??Wish i can come back earlier...

How many days left before holidays end??

How many new things i will learn this time??

How will the masks look like??Can i believe their taste??

How's with the sponsors??Anyone i can count on??

How is my friend??Do they think of me when i'm not around??

How everything will be when i'm not here??

How will i survive one day without online??

How will i be when i come back??Tanned??and dirty...

Everything is full of question marks....

How if this happen...?

and how if that happen...?

No one can predict future....and

the best thing is....

nothing is for sure...

Anything impossible can be possible.....

but still must stick to the ground...

Do not let myself travel too deep into my own fantasy world...^^

-sTuPiD CuPiD-

stick to the ground

How many 10 years??

How many 10 years do you have??
How many 10 years do you think you still have??

What are you doing now??
Where are you now??
Is this what you want to be forever??
Just a nobody...
a Nobody to anyone...
a Nobody to this society...
a Nobody to this world...
is this what you really want to be??
a Mr. or Miss Nobody??

U just have a few 10 years in this world...

and u just want to be a Nobody??

Are you sure??

Me...
I hope that i can be a Somebody...
a Somebody to someone...
a Somebody to this society...
I hope people will know who i am...(nothing to do with famous)
I hope people will feel that they are happy when i'm around...
I hope people will feel at ease when i'm around...

I don't hope that people will question who i am...

I don't want to be anyone's enemy...

I only have a few 10 years...

I want to enjoy my life...

I don't want to get hurt anymore...

I will avoid from being hurt...
That's why u will think that i'm rude when i do so...
I know that sometimes I'm really very mean and rude...
but what else i can do??
I don't want to get hurt...
of course must learn how to protect myself from being hurt....
Being rude and mean is one of the ways....to avoid it...
That's why only certain people who really knows me...
They will understand...
They will accept me for the way i am...
and they will back me up...

I only have a few of 10 years...
I don't want to live them with sadness...
I want to live them with as much happiness as i can...

How many 10 years i have??
Anything can happen at anytime...
i can die maybe on the next second...who knows, right?
If the maximum...i maybe have six to eight 10 years...
How many 10 years i still have??
Next year...i wun have 'teen' anymore...
Anything can happen at anytime...
i maybe will die before my 20th birthday...who knows, right?
If maximum...i maybe still have four to six 10 years...

So...how many 10 years do you have??
Appreciate your life...
Live them to the fullest...
Don't be an aimless person....
Try to find your direction...
Try to find out who you want to be...
and be what you want to be...


-sTuPiD CuPiD-
How many 10 years??

SABS MASQUERADE CHARITY NIGHT

the day your fantasies come to life...

~ step in to unleash a mysterious journey...

~ allow the mystique-ness awe you...

~ and witness the magicall moment swirl...

Venue : MS Garden Astana Ballroom (5th Floor)
Date : 27th of June 2009

Time : 7.00 pm onwards

Ticket Price : RM 60

*18 and above OnLy*

For more information...

Please contact

: Simon 016-9603556

: Cherryl 016-9349943

-sTuPiD CuPiD-

can't wait for PROM ^^