This accident gave me nightmares for the rest of my life...A friend of mine asked me this question...
"Do you think that friendship is fragile?"
My answer is "Yes, friendship is fragile"...
Why would i said so??
It's simple...
because i've gain a lot of experience...
A lot of so called "Friends" of mine turned their back on me...
They are no longer in my life anymore...
but what happened last time is that
when they don't need me...they will just act like
they didn't saw me even when walking pass beside me...
but when they need somebody...
they will realise that i'm the only one who is there for them...
because their so called "Friends" dumped them and back stabbed them...
Isn't this funny??
Some of my friends asked me...
Why am I so good?....Still forgive people that treated me badly...
I answered because i wish that they will realised
what is True Friend and what is not...
But somehow...
they will still go back to their BXX-chy friend...
i just don't understand...
Why want to be so desperate??
For fame??For what??
I have no idea..
until now...i still don't find that if they are close
with one another like my friend and i...so sad rite??
knowing a person for few years...
but still like strangers...or maybe
they will only come and find you
when they need a favour from you....
(She is just using you only)-This happened to me many times...
Believe me...It's not nice...
I hate those kind of people...
When i know any of these kind of person....
I rather not to continue being friend with him or her anymore...
because i know that that person suck....etc...aderlah...
Orang yang saya takkan maafkan dan
orang yang saya tak akan bercakap dengan
walaupun sehingga pada hari saya mati....
Let me tell you...You are useless...and hopelesss...
and best of all...you sucks...
"I will never let you to be in my life ever again
to have the chance to hurt me or ever use me again..."
This is what i promised myself...
and i will always keep this to myself until the day i die...
because i hate of being use and being hurt...
Somehow...I'm afraid if i already have a new phobia...
That is afraid of getting friends...=T
Don't ever dream that i will forgive you or talk to you anymore...
Because you cause me to have nightmares...
and i hate you...
To those who are blur and don't really know me...
This is what i want to tell to some people out there
who used me and turned their back on me...
Don't think too much...
You are not the one that i'm mentioning...
Well...i'm just so frustrated....
Writing all these on blog just for me to express my feelings....
Nothing else...No offence...
If you really do read my blog from the begginning...
I guess you should realise that i'm kind of negative....
or you can also say that i'm a quite pessimist kind of person...
I can't help it...I just can't...
I was betrayed, being used and being stabbed...
Those incidents really left deep and ugly scars on me....
Need time to slowly recover....
-sTuPiD-
eMo-Mo0Dy
hmm, your biggest problem is that you're treating everyone to be your 'true friends' , you don't have to stop being friends with them, just keep a distance from them, someday maybe you'll need them in the sense of emergencies? maybe, or maybe not. just a thought.You do get bothered by being backstabed by those you thrusted, right? take it as a lesson, atleast you got a picture for yourself what the person is likely to be..and you can get further from them, but not Putuskan the whole relationship la of cz !
ReplyDeletesomehow, i do understand your feelings, you remind me of my sister being in same situation you're at...this is what i've learnt from my mom during their conversation, you'll only be good friends when you both accept each others' flaws..people are not born to be perfect, some suck at socializing, you'll have to stick with it..she always reminds me of this whenever i quarrel with my friends..
i know you're a straight forward person, atleast i thought of that..some may not like it, or you could say they're running from themselves. maybe you could have acted the other way round just to ease the situation? E.g : not to over expressing yourself in front of them? Questions them? ( not overdoing it,of course == )
Just keep this in mind, always keep a distance from people, let it be close ones or the strangers..
Take this as an option instead of a direction! You still have to figure it out by yourself right?! And by the way, sorry for being not so persuasive in words, i can't figure out a way to say it == ... ohwell hope it helps.Life still goes on, Cheers ~ O('-'Q)